should i continue to care and listen to the ever deafening thoughts of people about my major life decision? not to use my meek power of telepathy and read people's mind, but basing the thoughts to the strong signals i received via all sorts of factors - like the tones of their silence, flex of their misleading smiles, and discerning stares. how come i couldn't just easily be apathetic and insensitive about what they think. why can i be, likewise, be selfish and just continue with my intentions and decisions - carefree, worry-free and bee happy. adding to the thoughts and the deceiving actions are the words that they say - heartbreaking words to complete the package. a package with overly used, crumpled, and mended wrapping. in it, is the overflowing hatred and around it is melancholy. with this, im losing my dexterity to write. with this, im misplacing my articulation to think of ways to be more resilient. with this, my pain is growing and heartbeats are slowing. all i know is love hurts love and love cures love - it may not make any sense right now, but i can use it as a groundwork of my goal.

to be continued....